contemplations

We are facing some interesting decisions right now. We are trying to decide whether or not to add a little girl, Mercy’s age to our family as well as the two older children. In my mind I keep thinking of the financial responsibility. “Will we ever be able to eat out?” “Will we be able to go on vacation each summer?” Each time these thought enter my mind I think of the Mother Teresa quote that is on the Maas family blog: "It is a poverty that a child must die so you may live as you wish." Then I think, do I just want a little girl, because I desire another little one. I do desire another little one. But doesn’t God say he will give us the desires of our heart? Shouldn’t this include providing a child with a home? I logged on my computer today I went into the documents and opened one that did not ring a bell with me. His word is nourishment to my spirit. I am going to repost it here:

This weekend our church was trashed. Our current sermon series is called Bookends, from Eden to Eden. Our pastor talked about creation and how we have trashed it. Our church auditorium was literally full of trash. You had to kick around newspapers to get to your seat. He talked about our love of materiel things. When he was talking about this “stuff” I felt God speak to me. “You will never be wealthy. It is not your things I want people to see.” What joy I find in that statement. I don’t want people to see my stuff either; I want them to see my Father. I want them to see joy. To experience this overwhelming love I have for my family and for the things of God.
For the joy of the Lord is your strength.”
—Nehemiah 8:10
You make known to me the path of life;in your presence there is fullness of joy;at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
—Psalm 16:11
These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.
—John 15:11
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice.
—Philippians 4:4
A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”
—John 13:34-35
My prayer is only to know Him more, to need Him more, For Him to fill me, for He is enough. Below is some scripture I had Noah memorize some time back it is so meaningful to me now:



1 But now, thus says the LORD, your Creator, O Jacob,
And He who formed you, O Israel,
"Do not fear, 8 for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name; you are Mine!
2 "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they will not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched,
Nor will the flame burn you.
3 "For I am the LORD your God,
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I have given Egypt as your ransom,
Ethiopia and Seba in your place.
4 "Since you are precious in My sight,
Since you are honored and I love you,
I will give other men in your place and other peoples in exchange for your life.
5 "Do not fear, for I am with you;
I will bring your offspring from the east,
And gather you from the west.
6 "I will say to the north, `Give them up!'
And to the south, `Do not hold them back.'
Bring My sons from afar
And My daughters from the ends of the earth,
7 Everyone who is called by My name,
And whom I have created for My glory,
Whom I have formed, even whom I have made."
8 Bring out the people who are blind, even though they have eyes,
And the deaf, even though they have ears.
9 All the nations have gathered together
So that the peoples may be assembled.
Who among them can declare this
And proclaim to us the former things?
Let them present their witnesses that 5 they may be justified,
Or let them hear and say, "It is true."
10 "You are My witnesses," declares the LORD,
"And My servant whom I have chosen,
So that you may know and believe Me
And understand that I am He.
Before Me there was no God formed,
And there will be none after Me.
11 "I, even I, am the LORD,
And there is no savior besides Me.
12 "It is I who have declared and saved and proclaimed,
And there was no strange god among you;
So you are My witnesses," declares the LORD,
"And I am God.
13 "Even from eternity I am He,
And there is none who can deliver out of My hand;
I act and who can reverse it?"