"How can there be too many children? It's like saying there are too many flowers." Mother Theresa

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Not my timing

Wanted to share my frustration with the process this time. We began our homestudy in March. It is still not finalized. I am pointing no fingers as I believe no ONE is to blame. I set goals for this process. My goal was to have all paperwork done by May 1st. OK, it is quick approaching July. See my frustration? Our homestudy has been reviewed, now we are waiting on it to be corrected. At that point, we can have our dossier paperwork reviewed. (I have had all these documents finished for weeks.) So honestly, instead on May 1st, it will probably be the middle of July before this is finsihed! Ryan is not as discouraged by this as I am, he says, "We don't have the money to complete this right now anyway, and it in Gods timing." I didn't think I had a problem with Gods timing. Many of the ladies I know finished all their paperwork in a month. It is hard for me not to compare myself with them, but I know HE is in control and comparison is a work of the enemy. So I wasn't working on their timing, I thought I was working on his, when all along, I've been working on MY timing! lol. Funny how we deceive ourselves.
My benefit dinner has been changed from July 31st to August 1st. Hope you all will be there.

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

My thoughts

What I'm thinking about while I wait:
Do they know we are coming?
Are they interested in having parents or only coming to America?
Do they know we already love them?
Are they evangelical or orthodox?
Can I hold my teenage daughter? Will she want me to?
Will my new son get lost in the mix of the other boys? Or do I have eyes to SEE him?
Will my daughter be excited to go to the Hilton to have her hair done?
Will she like the way I look?
Can I lose 20 pounds and grow my hair out before the trip?
Is there going to be enough money to pay for the trip?
Will anyone come to my benefit dinner?
Why is it taking so long?
Will they be ok with getting new names?
What will those names be?
Will I ever get to be a stay at home Mom?
Will people stop asking if we are finished?

I could go on and on with what goes thru my mind when I think of my new children. Please remember us in prayer. Thank you for all those prayers already said.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Too cute not to share

Mercy has an adorable friend who just happens to have a brother on Noah and Simon's baseball team. This weekend was his birthday. I think these girls had more fun than the boys at the party. Here they are riding around on the John Deere.