Sacrificial giving

We have been going thru quite alot internally. I say we, my family, but I guess honestly I have been going thru it and brining it to them. A couple of weeks ago we heard a sermon at church on giving. Not, giving out of abundance, not giving the 10%we don't even miss - giving sacrificially. Not just of our resources either, but of our time.
We have been attending a new church and haven't really plugged in anywhere yet. When mulling over volunteer commitments in my mind I was thinking of the things I could do that involved the least ammount of, well, me. Maybe I could be a once a month greeter, or maybe I could work serving coffee one Sunday morning a month. Really I am a sacrificial kind of person right?....wrong:-(
These thoughts led me to an inventory on idolatry in my life. What are my idols, I wondered? Vanity - not for my abundance of beauty, but rather my desire to be and feel beautiful. Could be an idol. Then my mind started looking at other people's idols. Food? Naw I think, not me. I'm just a teeny bit overweight. It's the obese who have a food idol. Right???? Wrong again. All it took was reflecting on where I spend my money and the things I "Love" - food.
Where does that lead me?
Well first of all, as far as giving financially we are doing what we can. We give our tithe and the rest, when there is a rest, goes to our adoption.
My time? I signed up this week to work with middle school stundents. This is something I have long thought I'd be gifted at and I am very excited.
The whole food idolatry thing...I'm currently low carb. If you think you have no food addictions (and I might remind you, addictions are never good, though we so oft normalize them) go without carbs for a couple of days. We ARE so addicted! I am again eating a vegetarian diet (not because I think eating meat is wrong. The vegetarian thing is a chapter for another book). My big idea right now is to get rid of all the food in the house. Empty the cupboards and donate the food to charity and buy my food/our food each day. Maybe that would give us some grasp of words like "Give us this day our daily bread." I want to make the decision to only purchase incredients or foods that God gave the earth. Nothing processed, no fast food. If we only had food enough for a meal would we appreciate that meal? Would we give thanks and mean it? Would we spend the time to know that our Creator God gave us food to nourish our bodies. If our bodies were better nourished, would we then have the presence of mind to nourish our souls?
Practically speaking, would our grocery bill go down? Would it go up? Would it matter if we were buying the foods that God gave us and nothing more? Isn't that a more respectable way to spend the money that HE has given us.
The vanity idol - don't have that one figured out yet. I'll let you know when I do. Right now I am resting in the fact that there are bigger issues in the world (and in me) than restling with 10ish pounds of excess body weight. There are people outside our gates who are starving too death, while we get fatter and fatter. There are people who have no homes, while we spend our money and energy decorating ours. There are people outside the gate who have no transportation, while we "pimp" our rides. There are children, children I have met who have on nothing but rags, while America charges its way into great debt for clothes. I don't know about you but this is NOT alright with me.
I have often heard women say "MY husband and my kids are my ministry." Really? I don't feel that way at all. Though I know my salvations was a free gift of grace, it doesn't come without some change in my life and heart. How can we have? and know? and be? and not share. "Our lives are not our own. We have been bought with a price."